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damn, last night till now has been an absolute bitch for me, went to sch yst, bad mood, grouchy, without sleep, messed up plans, had no idea where to go, i hate having too much choices, one will just do. i'm indecisive. i decided to stick with the boys at mambo billards, then we ate at this awful place at bk timah, which resulted in smtg. bahz...
bahz, kelvin is angry with me, he said he didn't wanna talk to me anymore, after i played him out twice in a day for mj, but luckily, i didn't go, cos ltr at night, at abt 3 am, i woke up from insanely painful cramps. then the nightmare started. i started puking and puking everything out, even my breakfast was out, drat, non stop, i didn't wanna wake my parents up, cos i know tt my mum wld wake up at 6.30, so i foolishly waited and waited, curled up either on the toilet floor puking or on my bed clutching my stomach..
i finally cldn't take it anymore, so i went to wake my parents up, parents went out to get some medication for me, as this is not the first time tt happened, i do have a history of gastricitis.but the pain refusedto go off, i even puked out the medication. my dad sent me to the nearest hospital. mum had went to send me bro to sch... i waited for fucking long, i cried so many times in public, it was just hurting so darn much, the sudden jabbing pain... didn't help tt the doc was poking here and there at my sore tortured stomach. i had to be put under observation for a few hrs due to the consistent vomiting, and low blood pressure. i nearly fainted again... was on the drip, it's so cooling...
the hospital is such a dismal place, sucks... there was this woman next to me, who was crying nonstop and kicking everything is side, she kinda affected me, then i started tearing and telling the nurses tt i wanna be discharged immediately. but luckily, my tiredness took over and i was sleeping like a baby, most of the time, the pain had kinda subsided, the time lapse btn each agonising pain was longer,
slept for a few hrs, was finallyu discharged. yay!!!`
went home, ate and took my medicine, and then fuck, i puked all over the first floor, my god, and i was the only one at home, i tried my best to mop up everything while clutching my stomach.. sad arhz, ann so poor thing...
and u know what?? all these taught me a very good lesson, i must take care of my body, my body system was alr on teh verge of breakdown with all the ridiculous timings and nonsense i subjected my body to, i'm gonna be a social smoker, yup, i'll even try to quit, try to sleep, and eat at regular timings, i do eat, i eat alot, but my eating timings are fucked up weird... yup, and less of alcohol, bahz, cant proply enjoy myself for yuey's farewell party on friday, i'll like have juice or smtg... i wld die, if i had like styomach cancer or smtg, the inconsistent pain, jabbing u over and over again, in a few hrs was like hell to me, it fucked up my mind, i had my control over my pain barrier and cried like a baby everywhere i went. honestly speaking, i wld rather die then go through such pain. yup yup.. arghz, so gotta take very gd care of my body now..
